Creepy, sneaky depressive moods

I can feel it coming, the depression. It’s creeping in. Taking hold, slowly, cell by cell.

I try to figure out the source and stop the flow but I don’t know what it is – Genetics? Seasonal changes? Hormones?

Let’s blame hormones. 🙄

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Here we go again: the job search is back on

The other day we did something fun about teeth brushing. Click here to see that post.

If you guessed number 1 for my teeth brushing habit,  you guessed right. Quite a few of you do it the same way! But some of you do it differently and I’m sorry to say, you’re weird. 🙃

In other news, I wrote and deleted two blog posts for today. Boo. They were too long, too wordy, too inconsequential, too stupid.

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Emerging from mid-life invisibility

Years ago something apparently insignificant happened to me. Since I’ve been thinking about it on and off for years, perhaps it wasn’t so insignificant after all.

I have some thoughts.

I am, after all, a writer and this is a blog and I like to hurl words about my thoughts out into the internet. 🙂

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Just a little wallowing…

As I sit here wallowing in self-pity, I tell myself: it’s temporary.

These depressions I get are a pain in the ass. I have nothing but first world problems.

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Justifying nothing

A couple of years ago we visited a long time friend of my husband and stayed for dinner.

The friend is married with five children. The oldest two were in high school, the younger three similar aged as mine, early tween.

My husband’s friend works full time in finance. The mom is an elementary school teacher but was supplying on and off while a SAHM when the kids were young.

They have a very active life through their church, volunteering, and with extended family. She also volunteers at a variety of different organizations. They sing in choirs, act on movie sets and in theatres, play sports and travel.

They have a very exciting, busy life.

While sitting together after dinner, the kids off playing downstairs, we touched on a lot of different topics.

The conversations started out about work first as is often typical at these types of gatherings, then merged into parenting and kids activities. Soon the mom was telling us about all the things she was spearheading, and then, suddenly, they all looked at me.

“What do you do with your time?” they asked politely.

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