Alternate realities? When dreams speak to us…

When I woke up this morning I was startled and confused. I had the most absurd, ridiculous, dream.

In my dream, my partner had bought a house with a lot of property.

In real life, this has been a thing we’ve been arguing talking about for a number of years now. Back when the kids were little, I would not have minded moving out of the city. Now? I’m not keen.

He is though. More so than ever before.

We are not on the same page when it comes to the topic of where, or how to live.

Given the corona pandemic, none of it is of any importance now. We’re locked down and going to be for a while. So there’s that.

But what about the dream then? Why would I dream that we have a new house?

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About my sorry-not-sorry comments lately

I’ve been saying that a lot lately, haven’t I. Like my earlier post from a few hours ago which was all ranty and full of expletives.

Sorry. (Not really.) 😐

Apologizing is a very Canadian πŸ‡¨πŸ‡¦ activity so sorry for saying sorry when I’m not really sorry. πŸ˜„

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Cultivating inadequacy

I had a meltdown a couple of days ago.

The worst part was my kids were watching.

Ugh.

In my defense, I had good reasons.

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Part-time anxiety issues

On some days, the slightest thing can cause me to feel major anxiety.

And yet, the same exact thing another day may not even register on my brain.

I don’t get it.

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Heightened state of annoyance

Look. I have been a mom of preschoolers. I have been a mom of fidgety kids. I have been a mom in rink lobbies and dressing rooms for over a decade.

I. Get. It. 😢

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Creepy, sneaky depressive moods

I can feel it coming, the depression. It’s creeping in. Taking hold, slowly, cell by cell.

I try to figure out the source and stop the flow but I don’t know what it is – Genetics? Seasonal changes? Hormones?

Let’s blame hormones. πŸ™„

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16. Vacation memories: hiking in the Alps – part 4

We took our kids from Toronto, Canada to Switzerland on vacation. This is our adventure.This is a multi-part series.

Scroll down to the end of this post for a list of the previous stories in chronological order.

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Part 1 of this hiking story is here.
Part 2 is here.
Part 3 is here.

We sat by the church for a while, checking out the apps and radar maps.

You may recall that my partner is a pilot so of course he was following the weather on the aviation apps to see how much longer the storm would last. It wasn’t long, and we ended up leaving the church when the tail end of the cloud was still drizzling on us.

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7.1 Vacation side note: what is wrong with me?

We interrupt regular reporting of vacation memories because of a major anxiety attack.Β  Mine.

😢😳😳😬😐😲

Did you know I had anxiety issues? If you read here regularly you probably made that assumption, I would guess. I may have mentioned it once or twice. πŸ™„

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Coffee saves the day

This morning I woke up at 6:01 and had one cup of coffee after a large glass of water. By 7:15 my girl and I left for some appointments at a local hospital (nothing serious, just precautionary) and although everything went relatively smoothly, I could feel the stress rise in me.

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The horrible day that Tuesday usually is…

…turned out not so horrible after all.

I wrote an amazing story today which I wanted to share with a friend, but I’m still editing it a bit here and there. This happened this morning, before I had to go walk a dog which, lucky for me, occurred prior to the rain falling.

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