In the last few weeks we’ve received news that two immediate family members have cancer, and a brother of a close friend died of a heart attack. He was only a few years older than me.
Before that, a niece of my husband lost a close friend to a heart attack. He was in his early 40s, and leaves a wife and two young children behind.
Another close friend of mine has a mom who has been living with cancer for years, managing most of the time but then having a setback here and there, some serious enough to require hospitalization. There’s an ocean between the mother and the daughter (my friend), which makes it even more challenging. I often think about their circumstances.
And then I read a facebook post that a neighbour with kids the same age as mine lost her mom to Alzheimer’s just last week.
It’s all very preoccupying.
March has been a hard month so far. My mental stability is fragile. I know what to do to keep it all in balance but do I do it?
Instead, I eat carbs and sugar which makes me feel so much worse. Not to mention that my clothes don’t fit right anymore which means I have to go shopping.
Not a fan of clothes shopping. Also, there isn’t any leftover cash this month for that so I’ll wear yoga pants for the foreseeable future, I guess.
I’m foreseeing a change in diet coming up in the next weeks.
I long to get outside and putter in the garden, go for bike rides. Look at greenery, spring flowers.
But that time hasn’t come yet. The sun behind my birch tree out front does not give off much warmth. It’s deceiving, they way the weather beckons us to head outside. As soon as we do, we run back in to grab a hat, and an extra layer. Spring has definitely not arrived yet.
But, hockey season is over now give or take a few more skates to use up the ice, tryouts in April, and maybe a spring tournament in May. But May is far away, so I won’t worry about that now.
What I will worry about is finding some positivity to hang on to get me through the next few weeks.
There are two places where I can go to redirect some of the less happy thoughts that seem to take up so many of my brain cells lately:
Gratitude Saturdays and Grace in Small Things.
Grace in Small Things by fellow Canadian Elan Morgan has recently been moved to a facebook group. If you have a facebook account you can type in the name and request membership.
As for me and my not so happy thoughts…I guess I’ll stay busy. God knows there’s enough laundry to take the better part of the day, and there’s always food prep to keep me occupied. I mean, the fam damily has to eat every friggen day, right? 🙂
Coffee. Must have coffee.
How’s March been treating you? If you live in place where sunshine and warmth are prevalent, please, send some to us up here in Canada. We’re really ready for winter to move on now.